That Is How I Feel Your Presence………!!! (April 17, 2007)



That is how I feel your presence……………

As I get up every morning and look at the small calendar of Ganesha in my room, with the hope that he will give a better start to the day…… I know that a pair of hands…. has joined mine to pray for my bright days.

As I walk down the lane, to reach the station and catch my 7.30 train…. I know that a pair of legs….. walks along with mine……. to make my journey comfortable.

As I enter the office, with loads of work waiting for me, I know that I will complete them all …..as someone has entered my mind to make it peaceful and patient.

Yes, I know that you are with me always…watching every move of mine.

I know that when I smile, you feel proud….of being able to give me happiness…..and I know that you feel guilty, when my eyes shed tears (even when you are not at fault).

I know that whenever I take a decision, you unknowingly guide me to the right path and still let me free to choose my way.....

You know when I am upset………. what has made me angry!!! You know when I caught cold….. when my foot hit the bed ….. and….... when I missed the window-seat in train…..you know everything…….just everything…………without my telling you.

Yes……….. I am sure….…that…you are with me…even when I can not see you, touch you or hear your voice. Your presence is in me….you live inside me…..as my soul. And that is how you have become inseparable.


Yet……………

It is scary at times, as I am apprehensive… of getting used to this feeling….of your being with me always.

After all, attachments are the source of pain. You are a shadow - promising to be with me in darkness and light…..but still….. I try to stop myself from getting used to your presence……a presence which is intangible…..

Life is a mystery………and you or I can never solve it……..no matter how hard we try……………

It is just the moments that can be treasured.

And so, I collect all those moments of your concrete and intangible presence…………all the precious memories, the give-get of thoughts, the high-low times…………..and every bit of smiles and tears……………I will keep them in my heart, so that you always remain in my soul………..to make me feel your presence once again……

…as tomorrow morning……I get up and see the small calendar of Ganesha in my room…………….

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