Translating thoughts to words

In Search of Myself... Living each day and each moment, I feel as if I am in search of myself. How can I claim to know others, when I am not sure who and what I am! I am in search – What makes me happy? Is it the peace, the smiles on faces around me, gifts, good words, delicious food, a journey to a new place, watching TV, reading, sleeping…what?? I am not sure…. because at times all these things fail to make me happy… and that is when I feel… I am yet in search. What makes me sad? Is it the difficulties of life, the tears, pain, failures, other’s misunderstandings, a crack in my favourite flower-pot, a friend going far….what?? I am not sure…because at times all these things appear too small to make me sad…and that is when I feel…. I am yet in search. I am in search of myself… I want to know what makes me happy and sad. I want to know my aim, my duties…. my demerits, plus-points and my priorities. I want to know myself, so that then I can claim to know others.

That is how I feel your presence…………… As I get up every morning and look at the small calendar of Ganesha in my room, with the hope that he will give a better start to the day…… I know that a pair of hands…. has joined mine to pray for my bright days. As I walk down the lane, to reach the station and catch my 7.30 train…. I know that a pair of legs….. walks along with mine……. to make my journey comfortable. As I enter the office, with loads of work waiting for me, I know that I will complete them all …..as someone has entered my mind to make it peaceful and patient. Yes, I know that you are with me always… watching every move of mine . I know that when I smile, you feel proud….of being able to give me happiness…..and I know that you feel guilty, when my eyes shed tears (even when you are not at fault). I know that whenever I take a decision, you unknowingly guide me to the right path and still let me free to choose my way..... You know when I am upset………. what has made